it's time to get out of the desert and into the sun, even if it's alone.

it's been an excruciating year. the pain "feels" unbearable, so i've given myself permission to do some outrageous things that are very unlike me.

for example, this summer i've allowed myself to spend most of my days sleeping and watching tv, or meditating (by that i mean, reading, writing, listening to music, praying, ect.). i've freed myself from all responsibilities and commitments i've had. 

though it's been a year a of pain and suffering, i feel like it's also been a year of rest and restoration. i feel like God just really wanted me to rest this summer. it felt weird while it was happening, but i feel the results of it now and i'm glad i did it.

but those days are over. i started school yesterday, and i feel like it's time to get back into routine. time to start making commitments again (and sticking to them). time to get more disciplined in everything i do; the way i think, how i eat, how i release my stress and/or anger, the way i love. everything.

I was on your porch,

The smoke sank into my skin,

So I came inside to be with you,

We talked all night,

About everything you could imagine,

'Cause come the morning, I'll be gone,

And as our eyes start to close,

I turn to you and I let you know,

That I love you.



Well, my dad was sick,

My mom she cared for him,

Her loving nursed him back to life,

And me, I ran, I couldn't even look at him,

For fear I'd have to say goodbye,

And as I start to leave,

He grabs me by the shoulder and he tells me,

"Whats left to lose? You've done enough,

And if you fail then you fail but not to us,

'Cause these last three years,

I know they have been hard,

But now it's time to get out of the desert and into the sun,

Even if its alone."



So now here I sit,

In a hotel off of Sunset

My thoughts bounce off Sam's guitar,

And thats the way its been,

Ever since we were kids, but now,

Now, we've got something to prove,

And I, I can see their eyes,

Then tell me something, can they see mine?

'Cause whats left to lose?

I've done enough,

And if I fail then I fail but I gave it a shot,

'Cause these last three years I know they have been hard,

But now it's time to get out of the desert and into the sun,

Even if it's alone,

(Even if it's alone)

Even if it's alone.



I was on your porch last night,

The smoke, it sank into my skin.